No matter how hard I try, I can't permanently get rid of fear. I can only overcome it.
I have tried to be normal and fit in with everyone else. I have tried to be the shy, quiet girl who doesn't get in anyone's way because she is scared of the way people might look at her if she actually voiced her opinion. I have tried to be the loud, obnoxious attention craved girl. I have tried to be the gossip girl who only needs self esteem. I have tried to be the depressed girl who wants sympathy. I have also tried to be the name brand kind of girl who purchases new styles to fit in. Through all of these personalities I have shifted through, I have found that none of them define who I am. I have been all of these girls before. These used to be my definitions: the girl in the corner who doesn't talk..the obnoxious, gossip girl...the rude, unfriendly snob...I have been all of those. Out of all of the personalities above, the shyness is still a big part of who I am, but it is not the biggest part. I have realized that, with God, hiding is impossible. When your with God, His light shines through you whether you like it or not. I found that being courageous and growing into my own personality has been the greatest journey I have ever been on and continues to be a wonderful mission, as it is not over. I don't fit in with any of those personalities because I have a better place to be. I fit in with God. I am a God girl.
The God girl personality is a life full of grace. The first part of this personality is realizing that no one is perfect and that God has enough mercy for you, too -no matter what your past looks like. When you pledge yourself to God, you become a new person with a whole new personality. A personality filled with God is irreplaceable. I refuse to confine my light to myself because that would prevent me from sharing it with the world, changing lives, and watching God's miracles at work. There is no point in hiding this light when it is who you are. Love is not a personality that comes easily; it comes with patience, and it comes with God. Take this personality and spread it all over the world, for the best part of God's love is sharing it with others and watching it change their lives as it did yours. So..as Britt Nicole might say, "Ready or not, here I come, I'm about to show you where the light comes from..oh oh..ready or not, here I come, this is who I am, I won't hide it."
Don't hide your light or back away in fear like I used to do, but become the light with everything you are, and embrace the fact that fear can be overcome.